Um, on second thought...

We visited the barn last night just so I could start talking to Kendall about where she was going and what she would see.

As soon as we walked in the arena, she tightened up. I guess it was because it was hot, and there were all sorts of smells, and a different environment than she's used to. And being held up by her tall 6'5 daddy didn't help much. We walked over to the horse to give her a peak, and she freaked out!

Like, freaked out like I've never seen her do before. Granted, it was a big horse, and it shook which scared her, but she FREAKED out.

Then I took her and Daddy came up behind her to give her her pacifier, and she freaked again. Jerking forward and screaming in fear. I think she though he was a horse.

It didn't stop. We walked around and looked at the goats and ponies, and she continued. Then I had the dreaded thought that maybe it was a seizure. The screaming, the hunching, looking terrified, are all familiar sights for us.

When we got in the car she was fine. She was a little on edge, but once we had the car moving she was fine the rest of the night. So, I don't know.

It definitely did not go like I thought it would. My initial reaction was to wait a few more months. We haven't even tried to put the helmet on her yet...which will surely be another freak out. I'm sure they've seen it all before, but I hate to spend all this money just to have her scream crazily each time.

Justin says I can't keep her in a bubble. He says we need to get her involved in the world, and since she's never seen a horse up close before, of course she'd be scared.

Personally, I like her bubble. It means she's safe and happy. Maybe I need some therapeutic riding....

So, those of you who've done this before, did your child freak out the first time they saw one up close? Do I continue to push her if she's terrified? I'm so disappointed!!!

Therapeutic Riding...

We are super excited to announce Kendall will begin Therapeutic Riding at All Star Equestrian on Wednesday!

I have been looking into this for some time now. Hippotherapy was recommended to us very early on, but the only facility that offers Hippotherapy is pretty far from our home. While billing insurance would be a nice benefit, we would have to quit one of our therapies, and I'm so not willing to do that right now! We have THE BEST team of people working with Kendall. Each of them feel like family to us!

We are visiting the barn tonight as a family to scope it out! Kamden is just as excited about this as I am. And Justin (though he doesn't show excitement quite as often I do) seems pretty excited too. He loves horses, grew up around them, and played Polo in college! So, I think this will be a very nice activity for him to participate in with Kendall.

I hope to see tremendous improvements in Kendall's trunk control. I have read and heard lots of success stories, and from what I hear, the younger you start, the better. So yay!

Kendall's IFSP was yesterday. The DAY C shows her adaptive and cognitive developmental areas at 10 months. Her Fine Motor and Gross Motor at a whopping 3 months, and the most impressive gain in the past year....Expressive and Receptive Language at 19 months. What a difference a year can make.

The latest milestone...when asked where her toes are while lying on her back, she will pull her knees in, crunch her head up, and almost (like really really close) touch her little toes. Have I mentioned how proud I am of her lately!?!?!

Living.

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle." ~Albert Einstein

College Football...

Kendall and Daddy enjoyed the night watching the OU game. Justin taught her lots of cheers, and they shared a lot of belly laughs.

Around halftime, Kendall went to bed with me to get caught up on trashy reality tv. It was there that I noticed her new love of "scootching." She will start out in bed with her head by the headboard, and end up doing a complete 180. When she gets to that point, she's very proud.

She's started to make a "kiss" sound back to you when you do it to her first. She's also started saying "oh no!" when her pacifier falls out of her mouth.

Her personality is showing more and more everyday!

Slacking

I guess it comes with the territory of being a mom. I constantly feel like I'm not doing enough. My house isn't ever clean enough. The dogs aren't taken care of as good as they should be. I'm not as patient as I should be when doing 4th grade homework with Kamden. I can't volunteer as much as I would like at the school. Kendall gets loads of therapies, but I feel like I'm not trying enough new stuff. I don't return e-mails like I should. I don't return calls like I should. I feel like I start a lot of things, but don't finish anything...not to metion my tivo'd shows are at an all time max!

And I actually really do feel on most days that I have pretty good balance of things in my life... I just need more hours in the day!

So, the past week got away from me. Justin traveled quite a bit last week, so I was on my own....(probably why I'm so behind on everything!) We had a wonderful weekend with friends, and Kam had a great first week of school.

Kendall had and eye appointment Monday. We are going to possibly start her in contacts. Her glasses are just too huge. She'll still have to wear lenses, but they could potentially be much smaller. Everything looks great with her eyes. We're still watching her right eye for higher than average pressures.

We dropped the ratio yesterday. So far so good. She's been pretty cranky and not sleeping very well. I feel like she may be coming down with something, or its just allergies because my house is so dusty!

We are going to be starting Kendall on the insulin pump soon. Due to the fact that she is such a "complicated" type 1 diabetic...she will have to be hospitalized for 5 days to figure it out. I REALLY was trying to avoid going right in the middle of flu season.

We dont have a whole lot going on right now, and it's pretty nice! Hopefully things can continue just like they are :)