I am officially a stay at home mom.
I had 12 weeks of unpaid family medical leave to ease me into it. Now, I can say it...I have officially quit my job to stay home and care for Kendall.
It may seem like a no-brainer to most. I mean, I have a very "medically fragile" daughter who needs skilled care 24/7. But for the past 12 weeks, I have run every scenario in my head. But the bottom line is this: Will I ever look back on my life and say..."gosh, I sure wish I hadn't spent that much time with that little girl?" And the answer is clearly no.
So I am a bit saddened leaving my career. I loved my job. I love the people I worked with. I loved having extra money and freedom during the day. I loved using my brain.
But I also know this world of special needs momism will provide me lots of love too. Already, the nurses, Dr.'s, and other friends in the same boat have oddly become my co-workers. And honestly, I have never used my brain so much in a job before.
I feel a weight has been lifted. When I left teaching for a career change, I never looked back and had a great sense of peace. Now, I feel the same peace.
I am grateful I have a husband who is such a great provider (no pressure now honey!) Who also has managed our finances (and mine) such that we are able to live comfortably on one income. We are blessed.
So, I'd better get off the computer now and go eat some bon-bons and watch some soaps or something. That is what stay at home mom's do right?!
TOTALLY KIDDING!!! Please don't leave any hate mail for that. It was a joke. But this is the first time 16 years I haven't had a job.