And we are home.
Home. I love the smell. I love the way Kendall responds when we enter the door. She knows. She knows she's safe here. No beeping sounds, no florescent lights, no hourly blood draws by strangers. She doesn't cry when we touch her hands or rub our hands through her hair. She eats solid foods in her chair with her spoon in our kitchen. She enjoyed a bath to wash away the hospital. And she's in her bed with her soft sheets sleeping more soundly than ever before. Home is a wonderful place.
It may take me a while to recover from these last two weeks. At the risk of sounding like a drama queen, that was hell. There's something about the hospital that causes me not to be myself. It may be the non-stop intake of caffeine, no sleep mixed in with not knowing what time it is, or what day it is. Eating crappy food and not drinking enough water. It could be the constant looking over shoulders to make sure there are no mistakes, or the excessive fear I have of germs in that place. Or all of the above. Whatever it is, it makes me not want to answer the phone, return phone calls or text messages. It makes me cranky and short tempered. But I'm home now, and like Kendall I can relax a little too. A bath and glass of wine are calling my name. The sound of my dogs and Kamden and his buddy in the backyard in some weird way has a very calming effect for me. Getting back to "normal" is a good thing.
We were discharged since the Endocrinologist on call and I had a discussion about the way things were going there. I assured him I could do a better job with this at home. So we were released to home with a very specific protocol. I will be touching base with our diabetic educators twice a day to report sugars and correction factors. Kendall's IV antibiotics have been switched to g button and have already been picked up. Justin and I were packed up and hot footed it out of there in record time. Seriously...I had to slow myself down on the freeway....I was that excited to bring her home!
Upon arriving home, my mother in law made us dinner, and my dad had cleaned my house again!!! We are so spoiled.
Oh, and thanks for your prayers this week. Despite the huge jump in ketone levels and blood sugars, we DID make it through a hospital stay without a seizure this week. Praise the Lord.
Tapestry of Grace, Year Four, Unit One
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